Forgiveness! My Ask

i couldn't sleep last night, not unusual for me unfortunately.  It's my brains activity that keeps me plugging a way to and at, the heart of matters.  So as you can imagine forgiveness was at the forefront of my thoughts.  What is forgiveness? Is it an action or a state of 'being' if you will.  See, my thoughts are curious.  Can forgiveness come from more than a single source; is the source of a single proprietor?  Yom Kippur is a Jewish holy day, an annual day of atonement.  Good for them notsomuch for me.  My friend refers to atonement as a means of moving forward which makes perfect sense when I’m not in dire need of ‘it.’  i like to say that backwards is a direction i don’t travel in but in reality a life lived without atonement, forgiveness or spiritual restitution, is a road with no direction whatsoever.  There are a hundred reasons forgiveness is on my brain but the biggest one is, God placed it there.  Jesus always wants more out of me, always wants me moving in that forward direction with Him.  It is not so tricky for me to know this but, imperative that I realize forgiveness as a moment by moment way of living.  If I waited for Yom Kippur I am certain I would have rationalized my way right into it was the others guys fault, period, end of discussion.  A less like Godly life and more like worldly way of being.  Which leads me right back to where I began, “forgiveness my ask”….it is between me and my Lord, but I must ask that is the imperative here.  My friend has it right, atonement is delicious. And I know it not to be a malicious weapon for belittlement and or entitlement either.   Why do I do it?  I asked that as well.  The answer as always from Jesus is one of sincere, grateful understanding blended with compassion and forgiveness itself.  “Its because you know better and I want you too.”